"not really sure how to feel about it"

                                       "Wanting her so much still frightened him.

At any time, it seemed to him, she might decide that he was too much trouble, or worthless, or no good in bed. She might meet someone else; she might come to the conclusion that she didn't want a relationship with anybody at all. She might die, suddenly, without warning"

About a boy, Nick Hornby

Und jetzt werde ich sterben ohne dich. Einfach so, vor lauter Kälte.